Wallflower Most Wanted… A RANT-review


Title: Wallflower Most Wanted

Author: Manda Collins

Publisher: St. Martin’s Press

Published: 30 January 2018

Source: Netgalley

Rating: 2/5

Goodreads summary


A dedicated painter, Miss Sophia Hastings is far more concerned with finding the right slant of light than in finding Mr. Right. But when an overhead conversation hints at danger for another local artist, Sophia is determined to get involved. Even it means accepting help from an impossibly good-looking vicar who insists on joining her investigation—and threatens to capture her heart…

Reverend Lord Benedick Lisle knows that Sophia is no damsel in distress. But he won’t allow her to venture into peril alone, either. . .especially since he finds Sophia’s curious, free-spirited nature so alluring. But protecting her from harm is becoming more difficult than the vicar could have expected as he and Sophia confront their fiery mutual passion. Who could have known that the art of love would prove so irresistible?


This post is long and had I not fear for my own sanity it would have been longer but fear not I have condensed all my rants to a few bullet points so if you don’t want to read the whole length of my rant but want to know my thoughts on this book you can just read the following.

To sum it all up in a relaxed and calm manner. I did not enjoy the book for the following reasons:

  1. The pacing was very inconsistent which lead to several unrealistic plot points
  2. Characters were bland and utterly boring.
  3. No character growth.
  4. Weak plot

Now, if you are interested in my rant by all means. Read ahead and enjoy.

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If you have been reading my blog for awhile you will definitely know that my favorite genre is historical romance. I am very lenient towards books from that genre. I mean what is there not to like?

  • Intelligent damsels in distress whom I can imagine them as being me (check)
  • Devastatingly handsome men who are good in bed and everything else apparently AND also have the bodies of the Greek god Apollo (check)
  • Me being pathetically single that the closest thing I have to a romantic encounter is through a book (CHECK!)

I will always find some good points to talk about it and at worst I’d still give it a 3 rating so when a book from this genre just completely infuriates me you definitely know something somewhere went wrong and it went wrong fast…

Wallflower most wanted by Manda Collins. Huh. To say I absolutely hate this book would be a tad bit too harsh but I will say this, I completely in all seriousness dislike this book. I did not enjoy it AT ALL and the only reason I am giving it a 2 rating instead of a 1 is because I did not read the previous books (of which I apparently have one, how was I supposed to remember? I have a back log of at least 130 books in Netgalley) thus I am giving this book and its series A HUGE BENEFIT OF THE DOUBT and since I now realize I have one of the previous book I will read that one and come back to this review either to take back my words or stand by it.

But in all honesty I shouldn’t have had to read the previous books to get the jist of the plot because I have read Elizabeth Hoyt’s books and I didn’t read them in order (I wish I could and did but Netgalley does not tango that way, I read the first book then completely missed at least 9 books in between before reading the tenth or so book) and I still enjoyed the plot and the characters IMMENSELY. Yes, the reading experience would be better had I read her other books in the series but that only serves to supplement the plot instead of eclipsing it.

Let me backtrack from all this passion to get to the core of my problem with this book. My biggest problem was the god damned… PACING! Either it was too fast in some areas or too god damned slow in others OR JUST COMPLETELY BS!!! (can you feel my frustration through the screen? CAN YOU??? Historical romance is my go to books for when I am in a reading slump NOT THE ONES THAT CAUSE ME TO HAVE MORE OF A READING SLUMP!).

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It’s because of this absurd pacing that I cannot relate, I cannot empathize and in short I don’t give a shit about the characters. They say that Ben, the hero and the Vicar of the town and Sophia, the heroine, have known each other for awhile now as acquaintances and so them falling in love doesn’t come as a surprise but it does! IT DOES TO ME BECAUSE I DON’T KNOW THESE PEOPLE! Like one day they are just NEW friends happily solving a mystery together and freaking holy cow a week later you expect me toImage result for anger exploding gif believe Ben is so deep in love with Sophia already. ARE YOU BLOODY KIDDING ME?! Then to put fucking HYDROCHLORIC ACID TO THE FUCKING WOUND YOU EXPECT ME TO BELIEVE THAT THEY WOULD IMMEDIATELY HAVE SEX??!!!!!!!!!!! AFTER JUST BARELY… BARELY TWO KISSING SESSIONS?! YOU EXPECT ME TO BELIEVE THAT SOPHIA WHO I AM ASSUMING IS A VIRGIN IS GOING ALL GUNG HO IN THIS SEXCAPADE????????????? She says she has read all them sex books before thus contributing to her eagerness well excuse you madam I too have read a lot of books involving sex, heck I have even read the KAMA SUTRA yet I am sure even I would still be shy when it comes to a sex session with a new man. There was not even a hint of shyness, if Sophia had been a ho before this then yeah this wouldn’t be a problem. She can ho herself into Ben’s knickers.

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Okay let me calm down. Right, the pacing of the plot is too inconsistent that the plot and the characters themselves become absurd and trust me I have read historical romance from the 80’s, I know absurd.

My next point is the characters. They are so bland, so two dimensional, so…so…SO Image result for tom hiddlestonBORING! I love me some independent, sassy, intelligent women in historical romance but they themselves have to prove or show that to me. It doesn’t work if the author tells me that they are all these things. Like where is the proof? I can say that I am unicorn sex goddess and have had sexual relationships with Tom Hiddleston but without actions to support that aka proof I just sound delusional. It’s like what they say regarding movies, “show… don’t tell”.

Let me give an example regarding this telling vs showing thing. The author says Sophia is strong and is mentally capable to hold her own and isn’t the type to change her mind so easily or she isn’t like other women who gets emotionally hurt over some random thing then explain to me why I fucking kid you not 5 minutes after Ben proposed and they were confronted by Ben’s Boss (I forgot what the title was for the guy) and his dad that Sophia gets all upset (internally that is) that he doesn’t announce and flounce the news of their engagement to the whole damned world. CALM YO TITS WOMAN! You legit got engaged JUST NOW! And then when Ben does announce it she gets upset again because it would mean trouble for Ben in the future and I am here like:

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Like which one are you Sophia? I understand the female pysche being female myself that we tend to change our minds but within a span of what 15 minutes? That is a bit much for a woman who has a life philosophy, moral code and ethics.

There was no buildup at all for this book. Not in the mystery they were solving and neither was it there for the sexy times. It was just a huge blob of Image result for i am not impressed gifdisappointment. And another thing I have to add here was that there was no character growth. Not for Ben and definitely not for Sophia. Their characterization disappointed me. I don’t know about you but I am pretty sure that a vicar should have some restraint when it comes to sex. I am not saying he should stay away from it but I was expecting that they would at least get married first before getting it on or at the very least show that he was having difficulties with both being a vicar and also wanting to have sex with his girlfriend. Some inner conflict you know but no what I get is plot conveniences and plots being glossed over for again more convenience. Inner and outer turmoil is what causes humans to be relatable and for them to grow to be more mature in life.

Also some parts of the plot were really ridiculous that instead of adding more dimension to the book as a whole it just made it seem that the characters Sophia especially are just thinking with their knees as Sarawakians would say pikir ya pake otak bukannya pake palak tut (use your brains to think not your knees). Examples for this are:

  1. Sophia tripping and falling off a cliff. Yes that is right, FALLING OFF A CLIFF. HOW EVEN?????!?! Girl, how close you gotta be to the edge of the cliff for you to fall off it so easily?? Obviously this mishap leads to Ben rescuing her.
  2. How Sophia faints after Ben proposes. Like don’t even with this. What is she suddenly anemic? It does not add anything to the plot on a whole. It is just annoying.
  3. The nickname wallflower from Ben for Sophia. It came out of nowhere. Yeah he gave her some flowers and he thought she was a wallflower instead of a social butterfly but honestly, it just came like a rabbit out of a magic hat. There was no backstory, no exposition (at least not that I read) and the nickname just lacked the emotion it was supposed to portray.
  4. At the end Sophia said something along the lines of ‘oh they just showed us what they wanted us to see which was a servant.’ and that just annoyed me. Did you ask this servant about their life? Their aspirations? Their wants and needs? Their hobbies? Don’t say that you care about child labor and the like when you can barely even notice the servants in your own home. You say this servant was like a surrogate family then why didn’t you know more about them? It doesn’t take long for people to talk to you about their hobbies or what they like to do.

This book just sucked my soul out like how Dementors just suck the happiness and legit your soul away. Far, far away. You know what if I go on this rant any longer either this post will turn into a dissertation or I will have an aneurysm whichever first. If you guys actually managed to read up to this paragraph I am impressed and beyond flattered.

On a side note, I really hope my wishlist for Netgalley gets approved (or whatnot) by the publishers because the second book by Sandrone Dazieri is out on Netgalley and I am like please PLEASE GIVE ME THE BOOK!

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On another side note, I think my fiery passion in disliking this book stems from the fact that historical romance is my go to books so when it is disappointing, for me it’s more than JUST disappointing. It is as if you have offended my honor and intellect! I am being a super drama queen but that is how it feels like.

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*I would like to thank the publishers for inviting me to read this book via Netgalley and this has no effect whatsoever on my opinions regarding the book as you can see from this OUTRAGEOUSLY long rant-review.

Ezza’s Bikini Body

Huh! I wish I had the bikini body. I WISH! But today’s post is where I am going to talk about my hypothetical bikini body which I will get by next year and what I will do if I don’t.

Right, I want to make this a weekly post just as an update on how I have been doing this past week to keep myself accountable. I could make another blog but I wouldn’t have the audience I have right now and how can you be accountable when nobody is reading/looking.

I am achieving this bikini body because next year around April-ish, my cousins and I are planning to go on a vacation. A very simple one, just me and the girls going to West Malaysian beaches and shopping and whatnot but it is our first vacation together and it is definitely my first vacation since forever.

I wanted to go on this vacation and feel great about myself and not worry about my muffin top. I want to go to the beaches and just enjoy myself with me obviously wearing a bikini and if I don’t get the bikini body and I still have muffin tops and love handles it is okay. I’ll still wear a bikini because let’s be real I ain’t wearing no bikini in Miri.

This post like I said just now is to keep myself accountable because I have tried okay the whole social media thing but it didn’t work. I tried twitter, instagram, tumblr, blog, the whole shebang so I thought why don’t I write my bikini journey in this blog because this blog is only 70% books and 30% random-ness anyway.

So, far I have been doing well with exercise and diet these past two weeks and this week (my 2nd week btw) I am doing the whole intermittent fasting because I cannot control my diet for long so why not instead of eating throughout the day I condense all my meals into a small itty bitty window. There is only so much food I can condense within a 5 hour window before I sleep.

On a side note I am really contemplating whether to buy protein powder or not. Should I? Is the power of the bikini strong enough for me to actually continue and see this transformation through so said purchase would be worth it? Dilemma… dilemma.

Carrie… A Review


Title: Carrie

Author: Stephen King

Published: 1 March 2013 (First published 5 April 1974)

Publisher: Hodder & Stoughton

Source: Local Library

Rating: 5/5

Goodreads summary

Carrie knew she should not use the terrifying power she possessed… But one night at her senior prom, Carrie was scorned and humiliated just one time too many, and in a fit of uncontrollable fury she turned her clandestine game into a weapon of horror and destruction…


Will my review be sufficient if I just state that I loved the book? Must I reason why I love it? I guess I must I mean this is a book review blog anyway. Okay, where to start. You can say I relate and empathize with Carrie. The poor girl was horrendously bullied by her peers at school for things she has no control over and also because she was just different. Yeah, it doesn’t help that Carrie is just a very shy girl, a bit on the kooky side what with her religious beliefs but have you seen the mother??? That woman was cray… I am amazed that Carrie managed to just be SLIGHTLY kooky. If you overlook her outdated fashion and her shyness, Carrie is quite normal.

I hated that everybody just passed judgement on her without getting to know her or her backstory. I mean legit nobody in the whole effin town helped?? NOBODY??? Everybody knew Carrie had a very abusive mother yet nobody came to help her? Befriended her to ensure she at least has one friend outside her home to make her feel okay that yeah life now sucks but eventually she can leave her house and she can explore the whole world? Is it any wonder that Carrie just snapped when the pigs blood was dropped on her?

To go to that dance, she had to stand up to her mother who was at that point Carrie’s whole world? Carrie had to take a leap of faith and trust Tommy and Sue wasn’t pulling a prank on her? So, yeah when Carrie finally just had a mental breakdown and started wrecking havoc on the whole town burning everything I was like

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Like look at it this way. They deserved to be burned, they didn’t help her, she owed them nothing.

Aside from having a truck load of empathy for Carrie, I also liked how Sue Snell felt confusion for he intentions in making Tommy go with Carrie to the dance. She wasn’t doing it out of the kindness of her heart and her confusion and dilemma provided a sense of realism for her character.

The only part I didn’t like in the book was how Carrie killed Billy and Chris so fast. I would’ve tortured them until they mentally break. I won’t kill them. Just mentally break them so they would suffer like how I suffered (If I was Carrie that is).

As much as I like this book, I do realize it is not for everybody. The plot is very basic, characterization is mediocre and the gore is sufficient at best but hey its only 248 pages so it won’t even take you a day to finish it. So, I say give it a go especially since it was Stephen Kings first notable work.

Books I’m Thankful For :)

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I would like to dedicate this post to all the books that have left me SHOOK! THIS IS FOR YOU!!!!!! I LOVE ALL YA’LL!

Right, this is for the Top Ten Tuesday meme from The Broke and The Bookish so be sure to check them out. 😀

R.L. Stine

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I was obsessed with his work when I was younger. First it was Goosebumps then it was the Fear Street installment and whilst I don’t read his works anymore his books hold a special place in my heart and also I am pretty sure it is his books that made me interested in the macabre.

Nancy Drew series

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This series was the one that sowed in me my love for mysteries and detective work. It was because of Nancy that I am obsessed with mysteries be it serious homicide cases to something really silly like the theory for the lore of FNAF (Five Nights at Freddy’s). If you see my Youtube history 90% of it is just me listening to theory and mystery videos and the last 10% is for random stuff. I wanted to be Nancy Drew man, a lil asian version of Nancy what with her perfect life; intelligent, pretty, hot boyfriend, awesome best friends, huh… still wish I could have her life to be honest.

Harry Potter series

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Come on man. This book was the shit for me. It allowed me to mingle with other kids at school because we were all reading the same books and best reason for me to be thankful for this book was because when I read it I really thought highly of myself and books I read and had I not thought this way of myself I would have never criticized what this girl read during a class and we wouldn’t have become the BESTEST OF FRIENDS! 11 years counting to forever man.

My Secret Unicorn

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Ah. This book was the book my best friend, Nyn, was reading when I came to her all low key judgmental.

Fifty Shades of Grey series

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Jesus Christ. I never imagined I would put this book into my books I am thankful for but let me explain before ya’ll think I am a hardcore fan. This book is my baseline for bad books. If I can survive reading this, I CAN SURVIVE READING ANYTHING! Also, the writing is so bad it unintentionally becomes a comedy.



Moonlight Over Manhattan… A Review



Title: Moonlight Over Manhattan (From Manhattan With Love #6)

Author: Sarah Morgan

Publisher: HQ

Published: 5 October 2017

Source: Netgalley

Rating: 4/5


Goodreads summary

She’ll risk everything for her own Christmas miracle…

Determined to conquer a lifetime of shyness, Harriet Knight challenges herself to do one thing a day in December that scares her, including celebrating Christmas without her family. But when dog walker Harriet meets her newest client, exuberant spaniel Madi, she adds an extra challenge to her list–dealing with Madi’s temporary dog sitter, gruff doctor Ethan Black, and their very unexpected chemistry.

Ethan thought he was used to chaos, until he met Madi–how can one tiny dog cause such mayhem? To Ethan, the solution is simple–he will pay Harriet to share his New York apartment and provide twenty-four-hour care. But there’s nothing simple about how Harriet makes him feel.

Ethan’s kisses make Harriet shine brighter than the stars over moonlit Manhattan. But when his dog-sitting duties are over and Harriet returns to her own home, will she dare to take the biggest challenge of all–letting Ethan know he has her heart for life, not just for Christmas?


Right, I don’t really know how to start this review so let’s just get right into it and just bypass all the hanky-panky-ness. Now, I don’t know how Sarah Morgan Image result for squinty gifis churning all these books out because I swear I would request one book by her on Netgalley and finish it and next thing I know there is ANOTHER ONE! Like HOW EVEN??! What is she some weird writing robot on steroids??? Which reminds me I better check Netgalley… just in case.

To be frank I don’t really remember my review for this book because I read it an eternity ago BUT DON’T FRET! I remember my basic feelings of it and those feelings were that the book was just ookkaaayy?.

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I mean it didn’t hit me in the gut with a fistful of feels like Holiday in the Hamptons again like all her other books I felt the ending was a bit off. The reason for this was that the build up of the characters and their relationship just didn’t warrant the grand gesture that Ethan (the hero) did at the end. Unlike Fliss and Seth, they had a deep emotional connection, their relationship was complex, real and difficult to maneuver what with Fliss’s guarded personality and Seth feeling tired of dealing with Fliss especially since he has tried everything so with that type of plot the characters deserved their happiness. The ending felt warranted you know.

With this book, Harriet and Ethan just started dating for a few months barely 3 months (I Image result for calm yo tits gifthink) and already Harriet is putting out ultimatums and I am not a person that likes those things. Ethan obviously cares and loves Harriet but must he be pushed into it? These two literally just started dating 2 seconds ago and now she already wants to put a need for speed towards a long haul relationship. Like calm yo tits Harriet, AT LEAST give the man 4 months to figure out his feelings. It’s not like he unemployed and thus has a lot of free time to think in depth regarding the relationship. The man is an ER doctor! PEOPLE GON DIE IF HE DISTRACTED!!!

 Anyhoots, to the good parts of the book. The good parts are that I really like and respect how Harriet challenges herself to get out of her comfort zone. This allows her to mature and be more independent regardless of the end results. Challenging yourself, no matter how inconsequential the challenge is can be applied in your own life which in turn allows self-growth.

Another aspect I liked about Harriet was how she has standards. Image result for i mean business gifYes, I was salty on how she gave Ethan an ultimatum 3 months-ish into the relationship but I gotta give her some credit. She told Ethan that either you make up yo mind on whether we in for the long haul or you get yo sweet ass of my couch and outta my life (she said it in a sweeter tone and fashion but you get the jist). If that don’t make a man take notice you mean business god knows what will and in all honesty if Ethan don’t come back to her he ain’t worth it Harriet no matter how handsome or how good he was in bed.

The plot was okay, it was very basic and quite forgettable. I mean I had to read other book bloggers reviews to even remember my own review.

Overall, this book was a semi-good read, I expected more in terms of complexity and realism between the characters in their relationship but Sarah went back to the stevia sweet trope type of plot so whilst it was enjoyable it just wasn’t enough.

The Scot Beds His Wife….FINALLY… a review



Title: The Scot Beds His Wife

Author: Kerrigan Byrne

Published: 3 October 2017

Publisher: St. Martin’s Press

Source: Netgalley

Rating: 5/5

Gavin St. James, Earl of Thorne, is a notorious Highlander and an unrelenting Lothario who uses his slightly menacing charm to get what he wants—including too many women married to other men. But now, Gavin wants to put his shady past behind him…more or less. When a fiery lass who is the heiress to the land he wishes to possess drops into his lap, he sees a perfectly delicious opportunity…

A marriage most convenient

Samantha Masters has come back to Scotland, in a pair of trousers, and with a whole world of dangerous secrets from her time spent in the Wild West trailing behind her. Her only hope of protection is to marry—and to do so quickly. Gavin is only too willing to provide that service for someone he finds so disturbingly irresistible. But even as danger approaches, what begins as a scandalous proposition slowly turns into an all-consuming passion. And Gavin discovers that he will do whatever is necessary to keep the woman he has claimed as his own…


Hello hello! Long time no read! Now this review was supposed to be up last month and for a blog tour but due to family matters and the absence of free time to work on it I will only post it now since I just finished writing it 10 minutes ago.

Now the booked hooked me in real slow because I just can’t imagine Samantha Masters being a historical romance heroine you know? She wasn’t exactly pretty and she is just a HUGE ball of spitfire and the sass contained in that petite body of hers can almost put Queen Bey to shame, I say almost because come on she is Beyonce, ain’t nobody can tear the Queen down from her throne!

Another thing I liked about Sam was that she was very trigger happy and when I mean very I do mean ‘VERY’ and because of that you can’t help but like her. It is not everyday you find a heroine willing to shoot just an inch off the hero’s face and she practically wants to shoot Gavin (the hero) every time he comes over to try and woo her. This ties in to its comedic timing because here is Sam DETERMINED not to be wooed over by a man who is practically sex-on-legs and there is Gavin also equally determined to seduce her. The woman is shooting at him left right and center and still he won’t give up so I don’t blame her for falling for him, she gave her absolute best in trying to shoo him away.

Before you guys think this book is all rape-y, it’s not. They fall for each other for reals and there was no rape-ish scenes happening so nothing to worry about on that front. They got together at first due to pragmatism and this reminds me of one instance in the book that just made me laugh. Sam wants to contend with Gavin over ownership of her land and to do that she must go to the local magistrate and after a whole tirade at Gavin on how she will file a report of his vocal abuse  to the magistrate, imagine her surprise when she finds out that the magistrate is none other than Gavin himself (okay if it isn’t the magistrate do forgive me the details get fuzzy after awhile so I don’t remember it).

As for all books I always root for the characters happiness because duh but for this book I REALLY ROOTED FOR SAMS HAPPINESS! The woman needs to catch a break which is also another reason why I really liked Sam. Gavin wasn’t the first man she loved and with him she found true happiness albeit through a very rocky start upon even rockier foundations but whatever main point is that she found stability and love that she sought in this sex-on-legs man. The plot of the book just allows you to really empathize with Sam who in all honesty was just swept off her feet in a thing called life and her pain over her first love was so real I really felt for her.

The book also has great subplots with its side characters what with Eammon (Callum’s father) and Eleanor (Gavin’s mother), Callum and the two dudes whose names I forgot. I am especially excited for Callum’s story because I am pretty sure the next book will be his and his subplot in this book is enticing enough without giving much away that I am just dying to get my hands on the next one.

I hope the publishers approve me though even though I did miss the book tour, I mean come on! I had to help my sister in law post breast cancer surgery so obviously my book blog which I do for fun will take a back seat indefinitely. I hope they understand.

In retrospect, I am quite positive I loved this book because of Sam. Her will to survive and be independent, her resourcefulness, her wit, her sass and also her vulnerability, it just shows how a real woman can be multi faceted and yeah Gavin is okay I guess but pssshhh he ain’t the only sex-on-legs I have read about.

On a complete off tangent side note, I didn’t know there was a Netgalley for the UK and the commonwealth nations (?) ????? Like whuttt???

The Slump-pitty-slump

I am in a blog slump and I am in too deep. Way too deep. It started off with me being busy helping my sister in law after her surgery to remove her breast cancer then I had to clear my stuff at my previous workplace because I am moving to a new job then the hand over then I just did not feel like blogging. So I didn’t and I am glad I am not the type that stresses out over my blog.

I will write something if I feel like it or if I already have something scheduled but I am definitely not going to force myself. I will probably start again next week since I have the weekend to bulk write my posts.

How is my life at the new workplace? Surprisingly great. My new coworkers are really nice, a bit too nice and empathetic if you ask me. This is because I am generally a sleepy person. I can sleep 12 hours the day before and still be sleepy the next day. I just love to sleep and at my old workplace I can sleep anywhere I wanted during lunch hour and nobody will question it they’ll just leave me alone but here they think I am stressed because of work or something and they’ll ask so many questions like is the work okay? can you handle it? is everything okay? and a word in Malay that represents how it feels is rimas. Aku rimas! Rimas kind of means uncomfortable. Kind of. So now I take my naps in the toilet to avoid questions and thus my coworkers now think I am constantly constipated.

I read Carrie and currently am reading The Shining but for some reason with The Shining I am not reading as fast as I could probably because I keep comparing it to the movie. Oh I forgot to say I must be the biggest fan of the movie without actually watching it. I have watched so many youtube videos dissecting and discussing the movie from so many perspectives that it feels like I have watched it.

So far that is all the update I got. I am just writing this post just to warm up the blogging gears in my body. hahahha.