Day 2: An emotional breakdown?

Okay, calling what I felt during my lunch hour an emotional breakdown might be a tad bit dramatic but it sure felt like it but let me back track through everything and explain from the start.

Starting from what is the meaning from my title of this blog post “Day 2”.

Day 2 of what you might ask?

Well it is very simple. It is my Day 2 in my attempts to reach 15k steps in a day. Now how does that correlate to an emotional breakdown during lunch you may inquire? Let me explain.

This third fitness challenge I am doing (Yes, third. I am also doing the squat challenge and the blogilates glute challenge) was meant to be a challenge so I could have something to focus on whilst I am embarking on my 6 months goal to repay my PTPTN (only for the arrears accumulated).

Something I could do without losing my sanity and a goal I could reach to feel a sort of achievement in my life but then I started to overthink the achievement part and it went into a downward spiral.

I just kept thinking and thinking and thinking of what I have NOT achieved or whatever I have already achieved is useless. The feeling was horrible. To have this feeling inside of you that just doubts or criticizes whatever you have done to make it seem so insignificant. To make any sort of internal growth redundant and stupid.

But after working out today and just releasing all that negative energy (and countless HOURS of talking to my best friends), I realized must there be an achievement? Must there be a goal at the end of it? Can’t i just be happy in the now?

So yeah that’s the gist of my emotional wreck during my lunch break.

As for the Day 2 itself, I did not hit my target of 15k today but I was close… SO CLOSE! I hit 14K. The reason why I did not push myself to reach that 15k was because I had been power walking aerobics style for the past 45 minutes. I was hungry. I had other exercise shit to do and my brain had maxed out at my cardio capacity at the 40 min mark.

I did have fun doing my cardio aerobics walk where I followed this YouTube Fitness Instructor who does these power walking videos called Gina B from the channel Up to the BEat Fit.

Her workouts are fun and easy to follow. No jumping whatsoever so its really easy on the knees and boy do I have bad knees.

And that’s that for my Day 2.